Purpose

Have you ever considered what your purpose is or what drives the cause? Today as I sit, ill and weak, I wonder what  is purpose and if I really have significant purpose. I mean, what really do we have to do? Why do we exist? We can make decisions that effect us in various ways and chose paths of all kinds... But then what? I wonder why do we wake up to keep going with the grind of life, to end up where. 

I've always been a social butterfly and a person capable of working a room... I somehow demand all the attention without even realizing my reality. But as of lately, I find myself wanting to drown in the background with no significant addition to conversation. I'm not sure what value any of us add. It seems we are never satisfied. With moments of what seems like happiness or pure joy, does it last? No. Moments are fleeting.

It's interesting, one of the first steps in building the foundation of a business or organization, is making a purpose statement... A reason for existing.. Is purpose defined by what is or what could be? I feel it's the question of the day. Today my purpose is... But what about tomorrow or yesterday for that matter. 

If purpose is to succinctly capture why something exist and what it hopes to do, I feel I have failed the first portion and therefore on a mission to find something but without a fundamental understanding of existence will purpose ever be held??

I'm curious to know why I exist. It's heartwarming for many religious groups to find there fundamental meaning of existence in their God... And for this that is all well and good, but what if you feel disconnected with your creator? What if you believe that you exist from oblivion? Then what..